Q&AInsight Meditation Society Retreat10 May 2012
Group E 4 — Mindfulness of Speech and Noticing Greed in Experience
Sayadaw U Tejaniya · 1 hr 49 min
Original audio: Burmese · English interpretation
0:00−1:49:19
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This group interview explores mindfulness of speech, attachment to quietness, and guilt over sensory enjoyment. The teacher explains how to recognize seeing and enjoying simply as nature and natural objects.
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Insight Meditation Society Retreat · 28 talks
- 191 hr 49 minGroup F 3 — Seeing Object as Nature and Right View7 May 2012
- 2012 minTaking practice into life7 May 2012
- 211 hr 44 minGroup A 4 — Recognizing Wisdom and Checking the Observing Mind8 May 2012
- 221 hr 38 minGroup B 4 — Observing Defilements, the Illusion of Self, and Cause-and-Effect Chain8 May 2012
- 231 hr 53 minGroup C 4 — Guarding Sense Doors and Staying with Awareness9 May 2012
- 241 hr 47 minGroup D 4 — Working with Wanting, Aversion and Awareness9 May 2012
- 251 hr 10 minDharma teachers group — Right Attitude, Interviewing and Sharing the Practice9 May 2012
- Viewing261 hr 49 minGroup E 4 — Mindfulness of Speech and Noticing Greed in Experience10 May 2012
- 271 hr 51 minGroup F 4 — Maintaining Awareness in Daily Activities and Dealing with Pain10 May 2012
- 2824 minAdvice for taking awareness home11 May 2012
Transcript
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Okay. So this is a recording of Sayadaw U Tejaniya checking Group E for the 4th time at the Insight Meditation Society on Thursday, May 10, 2012. And with those of you who are recording first this morning, please raise your hand to identify yourself too. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6. 5, 6, 7, 8.
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Okay.
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I will start.
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Jump right in. Excuse me. Sorry.
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So in— since it's the last day, and, you know, as I come to the end of a retreat, I sort of look at— well, it sort of— it struck me: the
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cause-and-effect flow of
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the, you know, experiences and insights that I've been having through the course of the retreat.
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I started with, um,
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really seized by a version, and then with the Sai-das instruction, work with that, it dispelled— it was a version towards not getting something I wanted, which happened right before I came in the retreat. So the aversion kind of cleared. Then I was seized with the wanting, what I had been reacting against, you know, with that aversion.
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So that took over. And, um, so I was able to get a look at that wanting from many different angles and different depths.
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And
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eventually came to see, you know, the delusion at the base of that wanting. I saw that, you know,
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not only could I not get that thing I wanted, or I saw that that thing I wanted couldn't give me what I wanted. It's like it was part of the letting go to see that that person could not give me what I wanted. So it was sort of getting closer and closer to what was it that I wanted.
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That was my inquiry. And so I came to see that what I wanted, you know, was, uh, to be reified, to be— to have— to be seen and acknowledged and valued. And that kind of came along with seeing that
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all the things that I do in my life, my projects, my activities, in some way are done as a form of making myself real. And then
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I got through— I mean, the connection— the mind made the connection through my knowledge that that was impossible, that what I wanted was impossible. And so it kind of opened up this beautiful,
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like, relief and release and a kind of excitement about the possibilities of that, the implications of that. Like, because all of my expectation about how people should treat me or
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what I— what I want from life, life as something to get and have, are all based in that. That, that, that needing to be real, you know. And, um,
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in particular, a habit pattern that I have
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where I hide from people, and I hide out in my little solitude as a way to avoid the disappointment of having my expectations,
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uh,
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not met. Hmm.
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So anyway, there was that, that realization. And then
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after that, I noticed the— there was grief, you know, like after grief and sort of depression. And I kind of saw that while I'm really clear about
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what my deepest longing is, that want to be
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recognized by the world, by people, that, that I— I'm not quite convinced that I can't have it yet. Do you know? That, that delusion is still present. That's the root of the sadness or depression there or grief. I still want it, you know.
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Even though my practice over the years has shown me it's impossible, I kind of know on one level it's impossible, that, that it's just processes unfolding, though, you know, it's not quite there yet.
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Sayadaw U Tejaniya began his Buddhist training as a young teenager in Burma under the late Shwe Oo Min Sayadaw (1913–2002). After a career in business and life as a householder, he has become a permanent monk since 1996.…